Heaven gained another angel today, a young man who shouldnt be gone from this earth so soon. And I'm left answering Kathryns tears, and my own. Why did God take another young soul? Why do these bodies we are given fail these children so? How can the God I have been raised to know love us and leave us so vulnerable to dying so young? How can he let these children suffer,these families suffer the huge loss of a childs kind and happy heart?
Many have told me that God is with us through these things and God only gives us what we can handle, but sometimes I want to scream why? Why would God think we mortals could ever handle these feelings of helplessness and loss?
The longer I've been on this side of the looking glass that having having a child with cancer provides, the harder it is to see a divine plan. My heart wants to know it's there, and to ask for guidance through this mess, but in the end it's our human and animal companionship that helps guide us through. The touch of others we love guiding us back to reality when we just want to drown our sorrow. To block out the noise and questions in our mind, the doubt. But we always must face the fact that this is life, here in this world. And we are not allowed anything but the hope that there is someplace greater in the great beyond where it will be peaceful and love and all of our loved ones will be reunited in the kingdom of heaven.
Rest easy, young soul, you have earned your place in heaven on this hard path through this life.
~In memory of Axel~
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